Didn't call?

OK really, when you say you are going to call, CALL! How hard is it, really! Dial the phone, you have done it before, and if you don't want to then DON'T say you will!!! Not too hard to figure out! Right? Am I missing something? Ok just venting! Because really, I am well worth way more than a call, I ROCK and you are totally missing out! BUT with that said, I need my friends support, I can't call or text him! Leave it, don't do it, don't break down, why do we think we have to connect with him? Is it our lack of confidence? What is it? Well I am not going to, I am NOT!

Because I CAN!!!

Two at Once

I don't know about any of you dating, but two at one time, I just can't do it!  I forget what I am telling one guy, not sure if I told the same story to the other, or if I am repeating myself! haha!

Yes it is very fun, but confusing!  So I have to stop and let one go for the moment, but which one?  Oh it is wonderful we actually have a choice.  

Because I can!  

Honesty

OK we all know "honesty is the best policy"! Why is it that some men will continue to deceive without incident? Why do they feel the need to lie? To get laid? Where does the dysfunction come from? A friend of mine fell for a man who continued to lie and deceive until the bitter end. She wanted to believe him until she caught him as they say "red handed". By the way does that mean, "blood on your hands"? Anyway, she was broken up, but really knew in her heart all along he was deceiving her and felt it for a long time. So what is our dysfunction to continue to not stay true to how we really feel? We stay because we want to "trust"!

Because we can!

Text or phone call?

OK, so are you supposed to make the initial contact after the first date?  Are you supposed to wait for him to do it?  It is just such an awkward time.  WAIT, he does text, not the form of communication I was used to as I was dating in my 20's, he had to use the phone and call.  Texting to me seems like such an "easy" way out, but at least he text me.  NOW what?  He doesn't ask me out, he just tells me how great his day was, well that is awesome, but what about the "next" date?  At the age of 45, I got stuff going on, so if you want any of my precious time, you better ask me early, otherwise, you got nothing!  Because I am booked! So I guess I will just have to wait and see!

Because I can!

First Meeting

It is always interesting the "first meeting" with someone new?  I met someone for coffee.  I was enjoying the conversation,  while getting to know one another is a bit awkward, but I found it really fun!  People are always interesting as we all come from all walks of life.  I was comfortable, but at moments I felt like I didn't want any "down" time in the conversation.  We sat and chatted for 2 hours, pretty good I think for that first "date".  Not sure where it will go?  He asked for a hug at the end and I obliged.  

BECAUSE I CAN!

Back in the "game"

You know it is funny, I seem to "take" a break from writing when I get into a relationship.  I need to keep telling my thoughts as I go through the process, because that is how I learn about myself and how I want to change certain learned behaviors.  So with that said, I am back in the "game".  Back on POF.  After my last 2 month stint with a man who really "gave" me nothing, emotionally or sexually, I am not sure why I "hung" around, ok maybe he made me laugh initially, but that ended too when he became uninterested.  Was it the fact that he wanted kids, REALLY?  He is 43 years old, single, never been married,(hoooo I wonder why) and wants to be with someone his own age and have kids!  Good luck with that! OK now I am really thinking that there is much more to just wanting kids, but I really did not want to hang around and figure it out, since the sex SUCKED!  OH well onto the next!!!

BECAUSE  I CAN!!!!!

I come first?

My bestest friend just told me that in a relationship "women come first in the bedroom"!!! 

What?????? how come at my age of 45, I am JUST learning this!  OK I am way too much of a giver and don't take near enough!  

The beautiful thing is that she was telling me because she was educating her 19 year old daughter!  I am so amazed!  That is awesome and something I will pass along, as my parents NEVER told me that.  

SOOOO now look out men as I continue on my dating path, I will definitely cum FIRST!!!!  

BECAUSE I CAN!!!!!